letterstoyou

A home to call my own

2012-01-24T20:38:00.006+08:00

Mid last year, mom and i made a decision that we had to move, to make room for more opportunities. And late last year, after so many papers signed, houses and visitors for viewing, we finally moved, to a home, smaller and cosy enough for just the two of us. I feel very fortunate that we have this shelter above our heads that we comfortably call home. All our ideas are poured out into the renovation, which took for about a close to 2 months to complete.
I can’t thank mom enough for giving me such an experience to gain from. Also to my sweetheart for the endless support.

Last weekend was our house warming. Here's a glimpse of it before the event started:

Most of all, a big thank you to all our guests for embracing the event. Thank you for your gifts and contribution! We decided to get this Philips garment steamer for our home. Thank you once again!

Kecoh kecoh raya

2011-08-31T19:27:00.020+08:00

Raya spells kecohness at grams, the delicious food, forgiveness and ofcourse, for the kids, duit collection!! I didn’t have hundreds to give away, but i hope that it could get you something once you sum up the rest of your collection. =)

The Subukisukis had many teams. But the main one was the team black! Which was made up of my family and 2 other fams. The day started with the usual Eid prayers, then followed by my sister’s visit, and off we go to grams!

Here comes the pics!

My niece being grumpy

Mentel mini me

Salam Eid Al-mubarak all!

As i was saying in my earlier post, love and i went for last minute shopping at the Geylang bazaar. Apparently, it was only then that i was officially informed of the black theme. And i don’t have black! So we searched high and low for a suitable outfit for the first day of raya. You must be wondering, why do i need to search high and low when there’s so many stalls selling pretty clothes??? Thats because i had to make sure, it fits all these criterias.

Criteria 1: For someone who normally custom-made their raya outfit just means that they just want one thing. They want it to be unique; like its known to them that they’re the only person wearing it, and that the outfit falls nicely on their body shape. You wouldn’t want to be on the way to somewhere and see someone wearing the exact same thing as you would you?

Criteria 2: Comfort. Unfortunately, i don’t go by the statement, ‘Beauty comes with a little pain’. I hate feeling all sticky in my raya outfit. So i will need to choose the lightest material as possible to stay comfortable. Haha! I know thats not so much pain over there. But any pain triggered will just spoil my raya mood. I’ll play it safe.

Criteria 3: This will be on my personal preference. Im not so much of a kebaya person. Im a baju kurung person. and im not so much on something really see-through or tight outfits. A little see-through is fine.

These are the main ones though. But i got tired after 2 hours of searching through the bazaar crowd and heat! So i decided to settle for one and then i realised, i had the same outfit as my bff, after she bbm me! Hahaha! Love it babe! Im sure we looked awesome in it right!
And ofcourse, my bf loved it too!

Here's a glimpse of my eye makeup. Yeah this pic doesnt do much justice. But just fyi, its kim kardashian inspired. Love her wedding make-up. Got a couple of compliments yesterday for this look!

Sister

I grabbed the whole family to watch Wujud 5 with me. Hee hee!

More came after that!

THE SCAREDY CAT

Niece and my whatsapp trio

The spread at Mak Eton's place

One word. 'Awwwwwwwwww...'

So today, mama and i went for our 2nd day of raya! No pics for today though. Meanwhile, back to work tmr. Hope it wont be long till the next entry. I’ll try my best to fill you guys in with the latest scoops! =) Till then, xoxo!

Eve of Eid

2011-08-29T22:16:00.009+08:00

Mom starts cooking as early as our pre-dawn meal. The day that i’ve been waiting for is finally here. Thanks to mom for all her delicious food, we had a spread for iftar. Even so, the absence of my dad is still felt. This is our 2nd raya without him. On a brighter note, im glad he left us in the most peaceful manner. For those who doesn’t know, he left us in his sleep, a day after visiting most of our relatives during raya, after seeking all their forgiveness and vice versa. Consider myself lucky that i had my chance to seek forgiveness before he left. He’ve done his duties/responsibilities exceptionally well as a husband, father, son, son in law, employee, brother and a friend. I couldn’t ask for anything more.

Okay here’s some pictures of the raya preparations at home. Actually, it was just mom’s cooking ;) Enjoy!!

As i was cleaning my shoe rack, i just realised that i have 14 pairs of shoes! (not inclusive of the 2 pairs at work) That’s alot! Well atleast to me it is lah.. and how often do i wear them?? Kk no more shoes! (for now)

Love and i had last minute shoppings yesterday. My fickle mind sure got him tired and alittle 'moody' at the friggin hot bazaar at Geylang. But as usual, he kept his cool. Didnt you, b? =)

Now time for DIY facial!

Salam Eid to all! Dont forget your raya prayers tomorrow! and ofcourse, drive safe!

last weekend and raya preparations

2011-08-27T21:21:00.024+08:00

Back!

Here's a post on the much awaited weekend. My dearest bf's bday that is. We spent earlier part of the day groceries shopping with mom and then the celebration began! Believe it or not, it was a 3-day celebration. You lucky boy! By the time day 3 comes, you can already spot dark circles around my eyes..

Let the pictures speak!

DAY 1

Iftar was at a thai restaurant somewhere in bugis. Weeeee! and we spent the rest of the night just driving around town and east area.

DAY 2

Dressed down cause we're heading to a concert.

What a view...

This is why i loooooove my ipad. What would i ever do without you. I usually go public. So im literally a road idiot. The only route i know is "CTE/SLE", which is the nearest way home from my workplace. hehe!

Oops! im sure u spotted the OCK carrier. hehe! cannot fast la..

Before heading to the indoor stadium, we head down to marina barrage first and bday boy here was really happy for his presents! Yeah thats 'Present' with an s!

So whats his present?

PARAMOOOREEE!

This is our second paramore concert. And we never get sick of it. Infact, this year's concert was 10 times more awesome as compared to last year's!! On top of that, our seat was less than 5 mtrs away from the stage.. I think i could even see Hayley's pimple! hehe! kidding!

It was really fortunate that the concert is on his birthday.

BF: Its states here (tickets) that we're seated at A33. Which is at the black cloth.

Me: Yeah...

(Almost reaching our seat)

BF: Are you serious?? this near?? are you serious??

Me: Yeah... ;)

THE VERY HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY!

We went with the Bride and groom to be, Liza and Raz. Raz birthday was a day before bf. So, for 2 years, Liza and I had similar ideas for the boys' birthday.

Last year, both the boys got a wallet. This year, to Paramore concert and we're seated next to each other! Looking forward to more =)

Hari raya is nearing. Have you prepared you zakat?? i know i have! Look at my unique envelopes! 2nd year giving out zakat in these envelopes. It sure brings smile to the kids faces.

Hari raya mood is on! Yesterday, as i was about to leave my office, my filipino colleague said "Selamat hari raya....... Duty free" oh wait! what she actually meant was... Aidilfitri. Lol!

To all, i would like to take this chance to wish all my Muslim friends a Happy Eid. And to my non-muslim friends, enjoy the loooong weekend!

my iShine finds

2011-07-17T12:41:00.006+08:00

Currently on repeat mode - Ku Menunggu by Rossa

Rossa happens to me one of my favourite artiste. Im pretty upset that i didn go for this whole apm thing! In fact, i dont even know its gonna happen in Singapore ! Or i'd rush down from wherever i am to get them tickets just to see her! I adore her talent, beauty and her bubbly personality. Love it!

Oh speaking of bubbly, i was quoted by my Director as 'bubbly and creative'. Hence, i am now nominated as the dinner and dance organising comittee. I've got quite of a mixed feeling when i found out that i was nominted. On one note, i was all bursting with ideas, while on the other, this means there's more work to the amount of work i already have!

SHARING IS CARING!

See these gorgeous blings? I can never do without any of these for work! Love that it never turn yellow or loses its shine! Got it from iShine. Its a small shop from Far East Plaza. Owned by a fellow hotelier (Ex-hotelier). What i love about being a hotelier is that we've got contacts from everywgere and i get discounts too! My favourite is the one on your most left. It never fails to attract attention. Even after putting it on countless of times for work, my colleagues still notices it! Some even bought the exact same one!

For those who are already itching to get one for yourself or as a gift, its located at Level 1 #01-77, Far East Plaza. Price ranges for my finds are from $17 onwards. Its a little pricey for studs. But the accessories there are of really good quality!

Alright! Thats it for this week! That's some justice that i've done here! 2 posts for 2 consecutive days! What a treat! Cleaning time! Or the viewers are gonna have the shock of their life and refuse to buy my house.

ENJOY!

Our visit to the Holy Land

2011-07-17T00:53:00.005+08:00

Praises to the Almighty. We became visitors of YOUR home.

That's was we call 'Jilbab'. Ladies from the middle-east are commonly seen in those. So, why am i wearing it? cus 1) they often have sandstorms there and it causes difficulty in breathing 2) heat is unbearable, Trust me honey, the heat in singapore is no where is comparison. 3) i wont get to wear it once im in Singapore! haha!

The whole journey was very enlightening and not to mention, CHALLENGING! Felt like i was really put to test! But i pulled through.. =)

Alright! As usual, after disappearing, i'll do this blog some justice by updating on my booooring life.

WORK

5 words - I need a new job

LOVE

5 words - I need a new boyfriend. nyahaha! i got you on that one didnt i?! now now chillax.. We're still very much in (though sometimes, out) of love =P What would i do without this boy.... How would i park my car?? Who'd take over driving when i get tired?? Who'd be my navigator?? Haha! At this point, its a shame that i still cant park my car proper.

Oh oh! did i also heard Paramore's coming again on the 21 August?? Dont get Hayley wrong, baby. She's not here for your birthday for sure! but oh wells, i'd better be nice to the birthday boy and grant his wish..

FAMILY

How can i live without my mom.. Love love loveeee her! We're catching harry porter next week when we have the time. Dont we have time? We do, but at the mean time, we're busy with our shifting. Yes, we're getting a house. Just me and mom =)) Perfect!

If you read my previous post on IPAD as bday pressie. yes, my mom DID got me an ipad! and im glued to it. im so reliant to it!

FRIENDS

I wouldn't deny that i've been kept soo busy with work, the next thing i'd just wanna do is spend some time with mom and then M and then some time of my own.. So that spells the lack of updates of me meeting my gfs and stuffs. OMG how boring can my life get??

To date, i've got 7 wedding invitations. Wasnt it like just yesterday that i graduated from high school?? Slap me! Im already 22 and it still hasnt digest in me just yet!

LEISURE

As at this moment, i dont know how else to define my love for traveling, if you dont already know. My next dream destination is Paris and Venice. Oh god please make it happen this April! I need this one badly..

xoxo

First birthday celebration

2011-05-16T01:23:00.003+08:00

More pics are up soon!

A gift from mr ariff! The least expected one! Thank you Ariff!

when I first got this from nana, I told her... "but I dont own an ipad." and she said " I know ur mom's gonna get you one.."
hmmm let it stop at that first.. Anws, I love I na!

Thank you Trina!!! I'll give u a kiss in this! Muuuuacks! This just adds on to my lipstick collection

See! Told ya!

My Polaroid instaxxx! Love them! Thanks lovelies! Toreen, scarlet n fiony love....

2011-05-16T01:02:00.000+08:00

i miss blogging! Just an update of this very humble life of mine. As we should already know by now that i've graduated and stepped into the workforce. Work wasnt easy to begin with.. i had endless nightmares and i hated it! but i learnt to love it.

WORK
My second home. Im an Events Services Coordinator in one of the 5 star hotel here in Singapore. I basically work directly under afew managers in assisting them with events and weddings. I work under alot of pressure and deadlines every single day of my life. But its all balanced. We work hard, we play just as hard!

GETAWAYS
Another way to play hard are my short getaways. I don’t have the luxury to cross the 7 seas or fly to the most exotic destinations. But im content with my short getaways. I often have them so as to release all the stress. Now that 50% of my life (as in work) involves planning, i begin to hate planning for my personal life. I’d prefer others to do the planning for me or just plain impromptu!

FAMILY
Its just me and mom now. Im lucky that she’s very understanding (though abit kanchong at times). We spend lots of time together. She makes me feel confident and homely. I rarely spend time with friends now especially when my weekday are burnt from work.

My work is not just the regular 9-6 for those who knows. What time i end work is just unpredictable. It can go as late as 11pm! Making it very hard for me to make plans with friends for dinners. And even if i did go off early, i’d rather arrange for dinner with my mom.

I really appreciate friends who understands. She’s all i have now. Most of my weekends are dedicated to mom and bf. The two most deserving people in my life.

LOVE
We just hit our 2nd year last February. He’s been here through my roughest times. Through my most depressive state when i just lost my dad and when i was just starting work. I couldn’t thank him enough for standing by me all this while.

On a comical note, we’re too comfortable with each other that we grew fat together! He’ve grown atleast twice his previous size. Yet still thinks he’s fit. But oh wells.... haha! I love ya!

ME
I will no longer be 21. This Tuesday, will be my 22nd bday. Nothing special planned out this year. But lots of partying ahead!

June, will be heading to the holy land to perform the mini pilgrimage. Who says u need to be a saint to be there?? I know im not one of the best candidates to be there. But i leave it all up to HIM.

Hello

2011-05-14T20:55:00.003+08:00

INDONESIA - Bandung and Jakarta 2010

2010-08-14T12:36:00.008+08:00

Another vacation trip as promised. Where to? Indonesia - Bandung and Jakarta with just us two; mom and myself. Well obviously we're not sucha dare devil to be there on our own. So we went with a tour group. Which i find quite affordable S$369nett excluding airport tax from Jakarta. It was a SOLELY SHOPPING tour.

Why I decided on Bandung was because I've heared rumours of it becoming the no. 1 shopping haven, overuling our legend, Bangkok. Bandung has been rumoured to be very popular with their factory outlet shophouses which sells branded goods like Burberry's, Gap, Bebe and etc, at very cheap prices.

Moving forward, why Jakarta? cus i wanna see the developments after my last visit; which was in year 1995.

A word of advice before your trip is to prepare and bring a print-out of the currency rate cus of the huge difference in currency btwn SGD and IDR. I did it and it became my bestfriend throughout my whole trip. And ofcourse, Jakarta isnt as chilly as Bandung. you might wanna bring your handy dandy fan with you, to wherever you go.

If you noticed, i didn capture any picture while i was shopping. Simply because im too scared to bring my camera out. You should really check out the crowd. Its unbearable. I wont advice you to bring along any claustrophobic.

It was a 3 hours ride from the Airport to Bandung. Along the way, i saw this gigantic railway track. The image below is basically an image of one of the farms there. I think i passed for a about more than hundreds of farms along the way. Ind time is an hour before Spore time. We finally reached Bandung at about 6pm Ind time. And shops will be closed at 7 to 8pm Ind time

Breakfast was looking pretty good. and Oh! that's mom! say HI mom!

Here's a view from my hotel. Puscharts are commonly seen in Indonesia. They sell food like Mee Bakso, Tahu Goreng, Fruits and etc. That look quite delicious but im too skeptical to buy.

This marks the end of my trip in Bandung cus we'll be making our way to Jakarta now. But wait! why did our bus stopped in the middle of Highway?? "Oh dear... Mobilnya mogok" which means our vehicle brokedown; for hours! and it was getting way too hot in the bus that i decided to go out. We didnt mind at all cus at 3pm, Bandung's pretty chilly.

hours away before meeting ain.

2010-07-11T11:32:00.003+08:00

next destination : jakarta and bandung

just us two

2010-05-30T17:07:00.003+08:00

oh did i mention we went huga huga for my 21st bday party?

theme was tarzan and jane. and you just cant believe how creative my family can get!

awesome bunch!

the expansion

though it'd be much better if dad was there. but im sure he's misses us as much as we do.

im very sure he'll be the most delighted to see his son on the dais.

we miss you, dad!

my graduation =)

these are just some of the many things that happened. the important parts of my life.

if dad was still here, he would've celebrate it with a blast.

i would most probably be getting my first car key. i would be the first, for him to see, in the family to graduate with a diploma.

he makes me feel so important in my every progression.

he would have bragged to almost everybody to how proud he is to have such a successful daughter. though i am not THAT successful, simply put, he's just proud by my achievements.
he've set all his hopes in me. i'd be more than happy to fullfil it.

thats quite a big luggage for just 1 person.

mom's going umrah next week! im gonna miss her! no breakfast for 2 weeks!

i love this space

2010-05-30T14:55:00.005+08:00

i love this space. it is probably the only place that i could really voice out my thoughts be it good or bad. i left this space for quite abit for a reason. so that i could shoo all the attention and have this place all to myself. you must find it stupid cus afterall all, this space is open to anyone.

Well, at this point of time, i guess those who will still be checking this space out could be in this 2 category. 1) people who are really concern of my life or 2) busybodies. i truly hope its not #2 though.

i had to do some spring cleaning today. too many things came in and i've yet to get it organise.

i personally think that i've progressed quite well for the past couple of months. i've learnt so many things as i finally stepped into the workforce. yet to love what i'm doing though. I've got so many plans for my passion but i think im having trouble of how to go about doing it. i feel the need to sit and lay down my plans for prosecution.

here are some things more pleasant to the eyes some are bday presents and some are just to pamper myself

let's sum it up

2010-05-29T22:16:00.003+08:00

dad's absence.
got my driver's licence.
abg's wedding.
got a job.
paramore.
port dickson getaway, spa and jetski.
lost my coach and got a replacement.
graduated.
sentosa outing with colleagues.
turned 21.
21st bday and mother's day party.
got my first key, tiffany & co. and an LV.
new additions to my make ups and camera collections.
nana's wedding.

that practically sums up the past few months of my life.
quite a handful to squeeze all that within a couple of months. but i managed. yet, i feel like breaking down every now and then. i kept questioning myself..

"aren't all these luxuries enough and are supposed to complete my life?"

i still feel incomplete. i spent on impulse as a temporary remedy to the hectic working life. when i was younger, i was full of dreams! what did those dreams turned into? what am i doing in this very routined job?? i want to LOVE my job and not dread doing it. i've never felt so terrible doing something. you might think that 3 months is too early to judge a job. it is not that i am not able to take the stress. but its just a big insult to me to be taken for granted, to be looked down upon and to be treated like a dog. im sorry that i had to give the dog reason as an example. but i really do feel that way. i've never felt so inferior my whole life!

i've been away from friends for awhile cus i feel too guilty to share these burdens with them cus they have their very own. i'd be out alone, with bf or family. i feel like home being with my family. they make me feel the most comfortable. they make me forget about my imperfections. they make me the most confident amongst them. it's not that my friends dont make me feel that way. i just feel that so embarrassed to showcase more of my imperfections. i just cant help it.

i want to be just the same way when they're not around me! i want to be just as confident! i want to share my colourful personality with the world! but sadly, i JUST CANT! why oh why??

try researching on the term, EMOTIONAL INTELLIGENCE. found my answer there.

2010-03-07T12:47:00.001+08:00

after so long. eversince dad was still around.

this one is for you, dad.

ily.

my hair spells B.O.R.I.N.G.

2010-02-17T10:55:00.003+08:00

so to which one of these ladies should i transform my hair into?

pic 1 and 2 is my favourite.

4th one is impossible for me. just love the colour.

2010-02-08T12:11:00.000+08:00

love =))

2010-02-03T14:16:00.001+08:00

I got tanner. somehow like it though

Oh! we're ONE, today.

happy birthday to us! =))

it's time for a change!

2010-01-27T11:06:00.005+08:00

i'm a devoted MAC user. it has great make ups at a reasonable price (if you're not broke that is).

Since Sephora stepped into Sg, i got so SEXCITED!

I love sephora eyeshadows and lipstick! they're so affordable.

I've been using MAC studio fix since i was 15. so that makes it a totalk of 6 years now.

And i think it's time for a change. I've always dreamt of using bobbi brown products.One of the reason was because it gives perfect coverage and they have a wider range for darker skin tone user like me.

I've been looking for a perfect foundation, not because MAC studio fix isn't perfect. It's just not suitable for my skin. MAC studio fix gives me good coverage but once it starts oxidising, it makes my skin look rather oily, instead of looking dewy. I want a sheer finish. However, i find Bobbi Brown products a tad expensive as compared to others.

Here's what i'm eyeing for. Something simple. I'm a pressed powder kind of person. Liquid foundation would add extra minutes to my 'getting-ready-time'. So yeah. here it is! Extracted from www.bobbibrowncosmetics.com

Sheer Finish Pressed Powder
Bobbi's long-lasting, super-sheer powder sets and perfects color to create
a smooth, flawless finish. This sheer powder is 1--% oil-free and oil-absorbing,
with Vitamin E for the most comfortable wear. In a sleek, square compact, Bobbi
Brown Sheer Finish Pressed Powder is an elegant and easy way to carry with you
throughout the day. Comes with a powder puff. Available in a rage of 7
shades.

let's take another diploma

2010-01-20T15:48:00.005+08:00

Picture perfect. That was how i pictured my life. How naive of me.
Just like the seasons and weather; now that's life.
All we can do is forecast. Yet it's still unpredictable.

I thank Him for that one burden off the shoulder. FYP submission is due. 3 more to face before i finally graduate. As i count my days to graduation, ironically, i don't feel like graduating.
Where do i go? How far can i go in achieving my dreams?

We all have dreams. some are meant to be mere dreams and nothing more. But there's just THIS one dream that i desire the most. Not easy, but not impossible either. My desire to this dream gets bolder every single day. But i just wished that the people around me would support instead of mocking.

And ofcourse, with the blessings of Him and mom, i hope that this will put our status at ease; livelihood.

2010-01-01T10:57:00.002+08:00

we did afew test drive on my pen baby. you never fail me, baby!
pen is literally like a baby to both bf and i.

reason for the lack of updates here was due to work.
as soon as the holidays come, i turned into a workaholic.
i'm starting to realise that i have more things to settle at hand.
like my fyp and mugging for tests.
thus, i will not be working throughout the whole of this month

its hard for me to do everything all at once when i have a bf serving the nation
and is on his leave till the new year starts.
it explains everything. i want to spend time with him.
how often do i get to see him? we'll make full use of most of the time we have together.
and at the same time, make tiime for mom, cus i do not want her to feel lonely at home.
i appreciate it when bf often comes over to keep me and mom company.
but i keep on having this burden at the back of my spine on fyp and just school shits.
i realise, that i cant do this alone. i hope zeez can help. kinda miss her. i'll meet her almost everyday in school, so in other words, we confide our problems to one another.

work doesnt give me any lesser pressure. im all drained with the issues at work.

2009-12-24T00:14:00.000+08:00

i love my PEN very muchhhh!

cracked.

2009-12-11T00:52:00.003+08:00

like a cracked piece of glass. still looks pretty but you cant have it fixed.

2009-12-09T12:19:00.005+08:00

was out with cik siti the other day and we saw the biggest LV bag everrrr.

here are the pics or gold class!

ever thine, ever mine, ever ours. ily.

2009-12-07T14:33:00.005+08:00

was on the way to work when i saw something at the woodlands interchanged which i believed, involved somebody''s death. checked it out from channel newsasia and this is an extraction from the site.

Suspected Indonesian illegal immigrant falls to his death in Woodlands

SINGAPORE: An Indonesian man died after falling at the Woodlands bus interchange on Sunday morning.
The 21—year—old was seen climbing over the parapet at the Woodlands MRT station and jumping down to the bus interchange below.
He was suspected to be an illegal immigrant and was trying to escape from the police who were conducting checks in the area.
The man was pronounced dead when paramedics arrived. Police have classified the case as unnatural death and are investigating it.

poor dude must've been really really scared.

new moon was awesomelicious! with a perfect 'noisy' boyfriend right next to me, two eye candies in the movie and yummylicious dinner! i had to explain to him what's happening in the event that he gets lost. took some nice pictures of boyfriend. He, on the other hand, just love taking ugly pictures of me. -.- *slaps forehead*

i have a new moon itch. i need to watch new moon again. i just NEED to. cant get enough of both my boyfriends! what's about all these team edward and jacob thingy?? they're both just as good and hot. i love them both!

pictures will be up later!

2009-12-01T15:23:00.004+08:00

yesterday, instead of spending some time with my mom and do some fyp at home, i decided to spend some time with my gfs right after her text message, ON ASKING ME OUT.
Im sure enough each and everyone of you will have that excitement to meet your gf.
but sadly, this gf of mine dont. she cancelled on me at the first hour of waiting for her and another gf at ion orchard. THANKS! can you imagine, from my grandmom's place, i rushed home to get ready, out and waited. and she cancelled on me knowing that she's the one who asked me out. i thought it should be me to cancel on her. her reason you ask? she's broke, pay not yet in and she lost her mood.

Now you tell me. would you do the same thing to your boyfriend? no right. why? cus he's someone special to you. you'd always wanna see him and stuffs. the same goes to your friends, darling. if they're somebody special to you, it would never cross your mind to do that. WITHOUT EVEN AN APOLOGY in the message. well, unless im just your random friend. which is what i am beginning to feel. is that what i am? a random friend? you want your friends to be there for you. but would you do the same?

im not a saint but this is what i have to say.
fitnah adalah lebih buruk dari membunuh.
so what does 'janji yang tidak ditepati' make you, my friend?
now you tell me. cus im nobody to judge....

enough of that. the thought of that makes me angrier
on a lighter note, guess what came in the mail today!!
saw the 'if undelivered' address from THE BASTARD MOVEMENT.
and that instant i knew it was lee!
i guess this is for me for not able to attend to the Mocca event.
THANK YOU SOOOO MUCH!
makes me feel like a kid who just got her first colour pencil set!
"i've got the best thing in the world...."

in my possession

2009-11-27T19:23:00.003+08:00

"ALL THAT GLITTERS IS GOLD CLASS"

2009-11-25T15:06:00.002+08:00

rindu banget!
the previous post was my late dad's nicely done grave.

im really happy with it. a perfect home for him.

next few pictures of baby and i on our dinner at manhattan fish market.

im broke. yet happy. and i eat non-stop.

my chubby face tells it all.

my darlas who went for the SIA interviews,

there is always other airlines or other times.

my prayers are always with you.

baby just got a new toy machine.

an iTouch. which suddenly makes me wanna own an iPhone.

but NOOO! my bill is gonna get crazier than it already have.

2009-11-24T22:24:00.002+08:00

2009-11-24T12:49:00.002+08:00

sweet escape!

inhuman

2009-11-19T11:03:00.001+08:00

got this from someone's facebook.

A Quote from a famous philosopher SNH :p

I strongly believe that one will never be happy if one would never stop looking back. If one can’t let go of the past, things from the past will haunt, but again, it can only haunt if one let them to. I believe that people are only remembered if one refuse to forget them, therefore it’s matter of choice. It is either live or survive, be the hero or the victim. At the end of the day, it is really down to the matter of choice you made.

comments:

anonymous1

i realy like this quote, very motivating and inspiring. .whoever wrote this must be a super genius and a wonderful person. bless the person. :)

account owner

wahahaah!! oh my god.. yeah. i seriously like it too..i feel motivated. im glad that this genius here decided to share it with the whole world.. Amin. Bless you back....

anonymous2

Sometimes, the choice an individual makes might not be the choice he/ she makes independent of others. If this quote is about what makes us humans different from animals, then sure. If not, this quote does not justify us as a person because humans are interdependent on one another, believe it or not =)

oh i totally agree with anonymous2. but wait. was that an animal that she just compared you to? awww.. how sad. i hope you're not offended, account owner. but it just shows how inhuman you are. i've always thought you knew what you were doing. but i was wrong all along.

for those of you who knows who this is. stop trying to defend her cus you should very well know that what she's doing is wrong. someone used to be so dear to me; left her family, betrayed her cousins and friends. oh did i mention, rejected my call on my dad's funeral? not once. but twice? not even a condolence text msg. just a shoutout in her facebook wall which i can't even read cus she's not in my friend's list. and and how about sneaking in on raya morning just to leave your father some money and clothes and sneak out back before he could wake up and see you; and most importantly, for you to seek forgiveness? why haven't i thought of that.. you could do that to your dad. then i guess that would make my dad a total stranger to you. so are you still not inhuman? you decide.

well done, account owner. you just prove your 'worthiness' to me. As of now, you're non-existent. *poof* as easy as that. =)

new moon

2009-11-18T14:52:00.003+08:00

my desire to catch the latest twilight saga: new moon, is burning.
everyday without fail, i'll make the gv website a must to visit.
just to start booking my for the tickets!
WHEN CAN I START BOOKING ALREADY!??!???
so i was browsing through the gv site just now and stumbled upon this.

Watch TWILIGHT and THE TWILIGHT
SAGA: NEW MOON back to back with free flow of popcorn & drinks! You get
to watch the sequel a day before it opens. Students pay only $24 per ticket
(applicable only to Special Student Session) when you flash your matriculation
card at any GV Box Office!Members need to login to their membership account or
present card to enjoy special price of only $24 per ticket (applicable to both
Special Student and Evening Sessions).

and i'm pissed off that i cant watch it! cus i've already promise baby to catch it with him!
=((((((((( sadddded. $24. almost the price i'd be paying for to watch it in gold class.

2009-11-17T21:29:00.004+08:00

still feels like he's here. but just away.
mom sounded really happy when she told me she dreamt of dad.
honestly, sometimes it feels like he's still here. but just away.
so whenever anyone of us dreams about it, it feels like he just gave us a call..
an overseas call? i miss him. alot.

anyways. my dearest boyfriend forced me to blog about him to let the world know how great a boyfriend he is. oh did i mention he wants 3 whole page of it? though i dont know how that is possible. but i mean ofcourse if i were to write about the whole of 9 months together with him, it will be more than just that 3 pages; be it good or bad.

but i'm tired... hehe! just took some medication and my eyelids are getting heavier.
so... some other time k darling. most of all, i love you.

2009-11-17T19:07:00.002+08:00

still in school. so i decided to blog abit.
most of the time, i see myself being alone.
be it in school or outside.
and i make each second counts.
cus i love being alone.

nanagi! thousand and one stories, all in an evening with you!

syaf's bday tmr. i've yet to get her anything.
cus im broke!

i've decided to ditch my dreams for someone who matters to me most.
i'm the only one she can depend on now.
if i'm not here, then who else can?

settled. in 2 to 3 months time.
cash is depleting.
i need to graduate soon and start working..... or who else is gonna support us?

thank you acer

2009-11-11T19:58:00.002+08:00

service at acer was more... what can i say... efficient?
sent my laptop for servicing and it took them less than 2 hours to get it fixed.
during the wait, managed to get some of dad's stuffs done.
not done yet? yes there's still ALOT of things for me to get it settled

okay i wanna watch sg idol!
loves.
i miss masoooood! hehe!

behind every cloud there's a silver lining.

2009-11-09T15:28:00.002+08:00

after the family gathering the other day, something happened to my laptop.
it dropped, to be precise. and that's not it. it was faulty.
at first i thought it was the adaptor. but it wasnt it was my laptop.
it really pissed me off because its the UT week.
and i've got not one, but 2 UTs for 2 consecutive days.
yeah.. what a bummer.

thank god having a mom who's pretty much concern about my studies,
she took the impulse action of getting me a new laptop.
which was really a good idea cus its about time that i get one.
the old one's getting pretty rusty. the desktop? dont even think about it.
its my third year, and third year means business.

i thought everything will be good after this.
woke up early this morning to get my laptop configured.
and guess what, the school system doesn't support windows 7
and they want me to downgrade to vista or XP.
one trouble after the other.
thank god for zeez and fahmy. you guys saved my life.
i owe you 2 something! big time!

thank you everyone. thank you. loves.
oh guess what, its time for ut soon!!

2009-11-08T19:18:00.001+08:00

gateway. new laptop!

how?

2009-11-05T11:03:00.003+08:00

how are we doing?

we're coping well with the loss. though it's really not easy.

one thing for sure that why i wasn't traumatised by the loss was because he went so peacefully, that sometimes when i start thinking of it, it puts a smile on my face.

that was the easiest way to go.

he didn't burden the whole family with the jaw dropping hospital bills,

he didn't worry us on his well being cus he was as healthy as a horse.

i wish to pass on the same way.

however, we're facing some difficulties with the house loan.

everything is taking too long to be processed.

it's putting alot of pressure on me sometimes.

big mouth uncle

2009-11-04T12:00:00.004+08:00

another loss in the family

it was my dad's side. my condolences goes to the family.

not that i'm being biased, but i never favored being with his side

it grew even more after an argument we got into afew years ago.

it was silence until my dad's funeral.

i've always knew all along that the cause to this family dispute came from an uncle.

which i won't mention names.

i think he've always envied my family's success.

maybe not financially, but just by being one happy family on it's own.

yesterday at the mortuary, he made a remark which really agitate me.

oh hello mr big mouth uncle, even if we're at the worst point in life to start begging for money on the street, you'll be the last being on earth for me to beg for.

i'll NEVER EVER touch a single cent of yours. or should i say your wife's?

since it has been hers all along, hasn't it? oh, do you need a mirror?

i have a GIGANTIC one at home. maybe i can lend it to you.

but be careful cus it might crack to your reflections.

plus and minus

2009-10-29T20:34:00.002+08:00

taking a break from fyp

fyp is more or less manageable this time round

we're organised

but i'm tired from almost everything.

tired of doing, seeing, watching and listening

the absence felt.

when can i laugh like before?

Taka Visa Debit, HOTA

2009-10-29T11:54:00.004+08:00

taka visa debit card. pretty right?

go get yours now!

here's whr you can check it out.

Guess what's in the mail for me this morning?

A letter from Ministry of health on..... HOTA

what's HOTA?

The Human Organ Transplant Act (HOTA) allows for the organs (kidney, liver, heart and cornea) of Singapore Citizens and Permanent Residents to be donated in the event of death, for the purpose of transplantation only.

The HOTA was first enacted in 1987 to allow for the kidneys of all non-Muslim Singapore Citizens and Permanent Residents between the ages of 21 to 60, to be donated in the event of accidental death for transplantation only.

Reason for the letter was that because i'm almost 21. should i opt myself out?

tired

2009-10-28T14:23:00.002+08:00

it's been awhile since i work.

work resumes last week. one word. exhausting.

especially after being at home for quite awhile, i tried going out to town and practice on my walking and standing skills.

unlike how i used to, i get tired after every hour of walking.

not much practice, i was exhausted after work.

in addition to that, the 3 nieces just had to interrupt my sleep.

so both sat and sunday was work

followed by supposedly-an-offday-monday, i had to settle dad's stuffs again.

was up early to pay a visit to NTUC income to have my insurance upgraded.

have you gotten yours? well you should.

went home. had a nap and went to school for fyp.

not really an OFF day isnt it?

too exhausting i skipped a day in school to have some of my personal stuffs settled.

too exhausting that i'm late to school.

next week will be a busier one.

i'll be expecting guests. monday, friday and saturday;

for dad's bday and 40th day. yes, it falls on the same day. miracle.

like i said. everything as it was written.

in between will be fyp and my outdoor activities.

oh god, give me the strength.

doing good

2009-10-23T22:08:00.003+08:00

2009-10-21T09:19:00.002+08:00

i haven't been playing skipping in school. straight B's in a week =)

skipping is so tempting

but i'll save it for some other days......

things to be done in month november:

empty and remove wardrobe

paint room

collect my outfit for suria's wedding

collect wardrobe

visit dad's 'home' on his bday

decorate dad's 'home'

personality

2009-10-19T17:08:00.002+08:00

per·son·al·i·ty [pùrs’n állətee](plural per·son·al·i·ties)
noun
characteristics making somebody appealing: the distinctive or very noticeable characteristics that make somebody socially appealing
a partner with real personality
Microsoft® Encarta® Reference Library 2005. © 1993-2004 Microsoft Corporation. All rights reserved.

so many different types of personality.
i think i have the most dull personality anyone can ever have.
i don't think i can take this world with as much laughter as any of you can
because i'm afraid if these laughters will bring tears to some other
because i think i don't deserve to laugh so much
because i'm afraid if too much laughters will bring me misery at the end of the day

i just can't live in this world not bothered of the people around me.
unlike you, i'm not out here to win. i'm not out here to be a fashionista. i'm not out here for fame.
i live the simplest a life can be. i wear the simplest i can grab each morning.
i spend within my means or even lesser now that i'm without a dad; the sole bread winner.
now tell me. which of these characteristics are appealing; as written in the definition?

2009-10-19T15:17:00.002+08:00

i left a twitter board in my blog to make up for my constant absence here.

2009-10-15T15:30:00.000+08:00

the good ones are being taken away.
why is that so? what does that mean?
earthquakes, tsunami, typhoons, skycrappers.. everything just as it was written.
i think i know what it means..

2009-10-13T14:58:00.003+08:00

alhamdulillah.
my prayers were answered just as it came in yesterday.
the joy in mom's eyes were so visible i couldn't get any happier.
i could see little tears of joy in her eyes.
he's still here with us.
never has he ever burden us even with his absence.
he helped us cleared his own debts. not needing anyone of us to fork out a single cent for it.
all the luxuries i owned are from his hard work.

i thank god that we get to spend his last day together, blissfully.

treasure what you have while you still can.
family; they're permanent. never disown them.
when you were at your lowest point in life, do remember who helped you.
family. not even your lover will be there for you.
he, who separates you from family is inhuman.
now that you're at a higher point in life, everything slipped out of your mind except for lust, pleasure and self.
now that you're at a higher point in life, remember that it can all be taken away from you in a second when HE wants it.
once you're at that point, i will just stand and watch where you will be.
words are just words when they come without actions. thus, they're just useless, dear.
forgiveness? seek it from it or you'll just remain unforgiven.
Allah is almighty. the most forgiving.
that's why i'm just a being.
think about it.

who do i reflect?

2009-10-06T20:59:00.002+08:00

some said i'm strong. for this, i can bravely say that i got it from my mom.
even with a heart to be mend, we try to stay compose.
it'll break everyone's heart to see us weep.
all we have is each other's shoulder to cry on.
everything happens for a reason. and this reason better be a good one. =)
what you see in me just reflects how my parents brought me up.

yes they doted on me. they were part of the reason why i'm so smiley all day.
they were the reason why i love being pampered
sometimes too pampered and playful that it disgusts some of you, strangers.
yes, strangers. how could you have judged me when you barely know me?
i dont need to mention names right.....

i need a reality check.

2009-10-04T12:30:00.002+08:00

i need a reality check.
playing in my head is that dad is just on his regular night shifts and he'll be back home soon.
but he's not. he's never coming back. he's gone forever oh dear nora!

He loves you more.

2009-09-30T20:39:00.002+08:00

for those who haven't heard, my beloved dad passed on last sunday morning.
thanks for those who came recite yaasin and for your prayer.
to families and friends, thank you for being there to ease the funeral process for my family.

he's gone too soon. we've got so many plans together.
i won't give up driving dad, i'll makesure i'm gonna graduate next year.
insyaallah, brother will get married soon so kak hanah can be part of the family asap.
we promised to take good care of mom. we'll try to make her as happy as when you're around.
that, i cant promise dad, cus nothing and no one can replace you.
hopefully along's next child is a boy, to take over you in mom's heart.
i try as much as i can to mend her broken heart. be with me, always.

the day before you left, was i think the best day you've ever had.
so cheerful. you asked me whether you've lost weight, whether your hair has grown.
and it was the best day of my life to get to spend your last day with you.
i love you.
the thought of that made me smile.
the night before you left, you shared your favourite drink with me.
you told me to drink warm water to ease my tummy ache and i did.

now what's left are just sweet memories and photos.
mom still keep your clothes unwashed for your scent.
they're irreplaceable and priceless.

finally!

2009-09-25T00:48:00.003+08:00

finally! to what? a whole lot of things!

finally i don't have to wake up early on my off day tmr
finally i'm meeting baby tmr
finally it was aidilfitri last sunday
finally it was bestfriend's birthday on the 22nd
finally baby was done with his 2 weeks confinement a week ago
finally its time to start on the next fyp
finally i met jali and he gave me a ride
finally i met liza and beloved cousins during raya
finally its about time i get you, wedge shoe!

this year's raya celebration was lower than average in terms of house visiting and ehem! green packets too.
we went visitting separately, unlike the usual 'emok2' as suria would say. how frustrating.

i missed sunshine like never before during his confinement period.
well i did had afew cry baby period but i kinda got over it.
currently i'm doing fine just because my stress period hasn't come in yet -
which is due to come anytime as soon as my fyp starts.

i haven't really been doing well financially.
so people, if i do not go out with you doesn't mean i've forgotten you.
it's just that i tend to spend everytime i'm out. even if it was just a chat at Ad macs, i'd grab some ice cream. you see you see... that's money!
i'm trying to refrain myself from 1)spending money 2)getting fatter from eating
another reason why i don't go out with you is also because of work.
you know how my work goes right people???

speaking of which, i was offered a job for post graduation.
but my dream...... my vision.....
idk. i'm still deep in thoughts about it.
it might and could be a career. but not a job.
the biggest but is.... is it something i'd wanna do as a career?

raya pictures are in my phone! laptop bluetooth device is faulty. tsk! so i cant bluetooth the pictures to my laptop! this sucks!

alright! more off days to come! i hope i can blog more.
meeting baby tmr.. baby! i cant wait for your pay day! im gonna ketok you!

countdown

2009-09-05T00:47:00.002+08:00

counting down to 4 more days to baby's enlistment.

had a great meal at newton just awhile ago.
now now.. be good and please dont start imagining how bloated my tummy is right now.
i think i can skip sahur later.

cant you see?? we're trying to squeeze anytime that we have for each other!

its been pretty bad at work these days.
my lucky charm just...... *poof!* vanished.

financially, we all know i'm not really that blessed. but nonetheless, im still grateful.
i've a thousand and one things on my wants list. which i supposed, i shouldn't be so greedy.
i've survived 2 months of shopping-less. and i guess it go on and help this spendthrift save.
i should cut down on eating out, unnecessary snacks or suppers.

this month, i prioritise on just the needs. no contact lenses for this perfect pair of eyesight and so on.
okay my phone just rang. gtg! see you soon =))

i'm tired. i supposed, i'll just hit the sack.

no where on earth

2009-08-31T22:53:00.002+08:00

i was stuck in a nasty maze; suffocating.
nope im not clautrophobic
felt like i was no where on earth
nope im not claustrophobic
it was no where near heaven either.
nope im not claustrophobic

i guess, part of being human is to be disturbed by what we shouldn't be.
if that's it then i'd rather be an android.

on a lighter note.
surfing the net has never been easier with the new mobile phone!
in addition to that,
baby just got me a screen protector and a set of matching mobile covers for the both of us!
SPLENDID! i've never felt so "couple-ly" haha! okay i'll cut that.
i love it and i love you, boncet!

a week more to baby's enlistment. a big no for me.
how can i cope?

transportation

2009-08-25T21:54:00.003+08:00

how do you commute? i go public. and i love it.
that's because i grow up in a family with no 'driver'.
so i've never really find bf with or without a transport an issue.
i love long and smelly bus rides, people watching in the train, just talk and talk or keeping quiet, especially after a long day.

over the years, my dad kinda got alittle tired from the need of going public.
he wants someone to drive him around. and unfortunately, that someone is me.
i am lucky enough though that he is paying for the lessons.
but being someone who's rarely on the road, i stil don't think i am mentally ready for it.
i don't wish to disappoint.

can you believe it? its already the end of year 3 sem 1!
i have one more sem to go before graduation.
for my dreams and burning passion.

full working schedule will commence tmr.

i miss you, sunshine. =)

hello baby

2009-08-24T20:00:00.003+08:00

i took a time out today and had a splendid time with baby sulaikha. for once, everything else was out of my head. it feels better than heading to the beach for a swim. she messed up the food i bought her, my purse, my bag but i just love her. love watching her babytalk, walk, cry, sulk, playing, smile, laugh and watch her favourite shows. mind you, that little angel loves watching P Ramlee shows and immitate.

my sunshine is being a pain right now, watching miss universe and drooling at all those hotties right before my ears! yes yes. have you forgotten you've got a girlfriend right here on the line darling?? =P

my work schedule is in! hope it doesn't keep me too busy to blog. hope it doesn't hinder in meeting sunshine because he'll be part of those men serving the nation real soon. and i mean REAL SOON! tidak suka! =((

the holiest

2009-08-22T17:49:00.005+08:00

the holiest month of the entire year is here. Ramadhan. i did alittle research for the sake of my non-muslim friends to know abit about Ramadhan.
here..

"During the Fast of Ramadan strict restraints are placed on the daily lives. Muslims are not allowed to eat or drink during the daylight hours. Smoking and sexual relations are also forbidden during fasting. At the end of the day the fast is broken with a meal called the Iftar. The fasting person must abstain from lying, cheating, argumentation, fighting, foul language and every sort of evil. These are considered offensive at all times, but are most offensive during the Fast of Ramadan. "

Today, the house was quieter than usual, to refrain ourselves from doing all those 'evil' activities. everyone was pratically doing our own things. even sunshine, he was sleeping. he claimed that is the best way for him to refrain himself from doing useless things. so what did i do? since im not working today, i decided to do some cleaning. i cleaned my make up kit. =)) *proud*

ever wonder what's in it? here's a little peep....

the base - most right is my glimmer shimmer, it gives a nice finishing shimmery look.

for the cheeks

for the eyes - eyeshadows

for the eyes - eyeliners

for the eyes - mascaras
for the lips - sally hansen lip inflation gloss does wonders. trust me!

my saviour. brushes

okay no more peeping! these are the main ones.

back to Ramadhan

"Laylat al-Qadr. Also known as the Night of (Will) Destiny, this is the holiest night during Ramadhan. It is the night when the Holy Qur'an was first revealed by God to Prophet Muhammad through the angel Gabriel. Although the exact night remains a mystery, it is believed to be one of the last ten nights of Ramadhan, particularly the odd-numbered nights between the 21st and the 29th.
Muslims are encouraged to seek this night through ardent prayer. The Holy Qur'an has provided that prayers on this single night are better than prayers of a thousand months. Seekers of this night will be blessed manifold, whereby all of their sins will be erased as though they were reborn.

Tarawih prayers. Consisting of eight to twenty raka'ah, the Islamic units of prayer, these optional prayers are performed every night during Ramadhan. Tarawih prayers can be performed congregationally at the mosque or individually at home. At the mosque, the entire Holy Qur'an is recited for these prayers. The 114 chapters of the holy book have been conveniently divided into 30 equal sections, one for each night of Ramadhan. "

so... have a blissful Ramadhan everyone!

2009-08-21T00:16:00.003+08:00

its the time of the year again to have my phone changed. but this year i've been having non-stop problems by my service provider. probably it's a sign for me to switch to another one.

it's sunshine's birthday! we had an advanced celebration date earlier this week to avoid clashes with the usual terawih as it just begins. HAPPY BIRTHDAY, SUNSHINE! my thumb still aches after losing two rounds of bowling. not that i didn't wanna win it. 'give face'... haha!

there's sales UT tmr at 830am and here i am, happily blogging.

lee pm-ed me the other day regarding an event he's organising. MOCCA IS COMING YO YO! i tried requesting for a song but to no avail. i have the poster but it's not supposed to be out yet. so.... i won't be a kpochi cus lee will be out of job as soon as i become one. i'll let him, have the honour to advertise it first!

finally

2009-08-19T23:36:00.003+08:00

i finally realise what 'opposite attracts' really means. you're what im missing of.

my sense of humour

my pillar of strength

my chill pill

it has been awhile. my life was a direct replica of a roller coaster ride.

majorly in school. i've been on the longest hiatus ever i guess!

without a doubt, i miss everyone.

from my cousins to newtons to karma to s.s.es.

speaking of which, i finally saw my dearest mai walking happily hand in hand with a boy. that certainly put a smile on my face.

i've took out the old dusty and rusty tagboard. if you need to reach me, you can email me.

redroses_sn@hotmail.com , which is already known to most.

i hate the need to filter my words; to please. im considering to switch to another blog or just stick to this. this blog has waaaay to much sentiments for me to just close it down. i'll give it some thoughts. meanwhile, it will still be here.

so, capture the moment.

2009-08-12T22:28:00.000+08:00

i love ion!

meeting call

2009-08-04T15:17:00.002+08:00

endless of meeting calls after months of hiatus.
BUT WAIT!
i need to cater to myself for the lack of space.
one by one!

STRESS PERIOD

2009-07-03T00:15:00.001+08:00

have a break. have a kit kat. oh tak eh? hehe!

im taking a 5 mins break from FYP. its torturous. my mind is endlessly on it and nothing else. my apologies goes out to all victims of my stress period.

a sudden break down is nothing new recently. it happens all the time. i'll go about all out to do just anything to prevent it. like..... getting myself a cheap MP3 from 7-11(its a store and more. lol!) for just $34.95. i need music.. baroque music especially. oh did i mention MJ's heal the world and childhood is part of my playlist too?

im trying as much as possible to make time for just everything that i need to. for now, priorities first. but i need a break. an hour or two. it's been endless fyp for me.

SCH - HOME - FYP - SLEEP - SCH - HOME - FYP - SLEEP and it goes on. its just that work takes over school on weekends. and dont be fooled by the word sleep. its more of a nap actually.
and i cannot even be bothered to doll myself up to school anymore. foundation and blusher ONLY???

"HEAL THE WORLD. MAKE IT A BETTER PLACE. FOR YOU AND FOR ME AND THE ENTIRE HUMAN RACE" oh tak eh? haha!

no lies just love says:

2009-06-22T02:16:00.001+08:00

I wish we can fly sky high to a faraway place - where the four seasons can be experienced - and be rid of our sorrows and misery that derives from problems that comes in all sort of shapes and sizes. Carefree would be the epitome of our lives and love would be us for one another. We'll live together, in perfect harmony, under the same roof, sharing everything from tears to joy, even panties if need be so.

We'd be so in love with each other, that if only marriage at a young age wasn't seen as socially unacceptable and denied trivial in the public's eye, then we would have been married ages ago. We'll sail around the world in our very own cute pink yacth with cute little hearts and glitters all over it with matching pink everything. Or fly sky high among the blue blue skies in our private jet, which comes along with a personal charming pilot to fly us to where ever we want to, whenever we desired. And inevitably, shop at every corner of every street in every town in all the countries named on the world map, chauffeured around by our oh-so-delightful yet sinful bodyguard in tux, yet again in pink from top to toe. Delicious desire?

We'd run along the sandy bejewelled beach every sunset, - which comes with crystal clear water and colourful corals beneath the ocean - cause everyone knows how breath-taking sunsets are, we'd be in awe after every session, and refrain our anxiety, of catching the next one, from getting the best of us. Our beach house, rootted on the hillside off the coast, would be perfect in our eyes - an enormous house wrapped in baby-pink wrapper with a bow on top, the ones that always surprises and never fails to leave us amazed every time we caught sight of it.

Baby, this one's for you.

No matter how hard life throws you down at one point of time, remember I'll always be here for you for the rest of time. Somehow or rather, we always get sucked into the same shithole, face the same in-the-same-boat dilemmas or get our asses into the same trouble, we'll stick it out together come what may. Our oath to stay keeps me going every passing minute in sadness, and you know i'll do whatever it takes to be the greatest boyfriend you'll ever have.

i love u so

kisses to u..

2009-05-28T14:57:00.003+08:00

walk with me through my long belated birthday.

Ready, Set, Go!

fish n co., angels and demons, carousel, mussels, seafood, yummylicious desserts, shopping, bag, denim jacket, home, kfc, sentosa, potato chips, swim, muddy water, seaweed nightmares, sakura, flowers, charles and keith, birthday song, birthday cake, staring crowds, angels and demons and angels and demons.

and yes. i caught angels and demons thrice, believe it or not.

The Finish Line.

impressive.

im doing great! never been better. thank you. =))

2009-05-19T14:30:00.001+08:00

how was birthday?
lots and lots of fun and good fooooood!

a big thank you to you, you and you!

2009-05-15T14:46:00.002+08:00

after much torturous time in toiletS,

IT starts today..

and im EGGGGcited!!

oh! and to you. i cant be bothered.

you're non-existant. period.

i can be just as bitchy as you are.

or even worse.

but oh wells... like i said. i cant be bothered.

you swine!

2009-04-29T00:13:00.002+08:00

fuck swine flu! dont ruin my somewhr-secret june holiday trip!

i cannot believe how i made money revolve around my world.
i cannot believe that i my phone bill just reached $200
i cannot believe that my hard earned money will be gone to it.

so much for money rolling in huhhh! hehe!

2009-04-24T21:26:00.002+08:00

there.
today.
my 2nd screwed up presentation throughout my 2-and-less-than-a-month years in rp
i felt......

INFERIOR

probably the only word that i can think of.

2009-04-23T15:19:00.000+08:00

pink and blue? =))

2009-04-23T01:35:00.001+08:00

time tells....

2009-04-21T13:35:00.002+08:00

4 days of "trip to malaysia"
it was by far the best possible reason for me to lie my way through my 4 days off from work.
all went as planned except for the trip to jb with ain, which was cancelled.
gfs gfs gfs! we had an extravagant night!
sakura, manhattan fish market, fish and co, cheap pizzas, curry chicken rice, fried mars bars...
and no gym session.
let's all do a mental calculation to the amount of kilos i've just put on!

Day 1 of school
i was almost on the verge of becoming a lesbian to a bunga citra lestari look alike in my class.
pretty? yes. but her name is prettier. CHANEL.

speaking of which, i underestimated the price of a chanel bag. yah. how much more dumb can i get?

5 days of a holiday trip is coming. im not telling whr. cus its like a curse. once i tell, i'll end up not going. just like my bangkok trip.

but hey! on a brighter note, i was lucky enough not to go or i'd be stuck there as they declare themselves in state of emergency.

oh heck my team mates are back. more to blog about actually but school comes first i guess.
i can assure myself to a better gpa this year for the new system rocks my socks!

2009-03-14T23:47:00.002+08:00

yooooooooo!

i came back at an ungodly hour of 2am last night.
met up with syaza cantik till midnight.
then 'walked' home; accompanied.

i miss you.

gone. for good.

2009-03-05T23:28:00.005+08:00

you have no idea how much damages you've brought to this poor little heart.

i'll be gone now.. for good.

and dont you come back.. again.

i'll leave my heart whr it'll be safe and sound, and well taken care of.

2009-02-27T15:33:00.000+08:00

STONED.

tiff

2009-02-27T14:22:00.002+08:00

i had a tiff with mom.
its so rare of me to have a tiff with mom
i hate it cus it makes me feel sinned.
and i'll be sent to hell for this.

its my only off day. planned some stuffs with syaza!
you better love me alot alot okay!
my birthday must do big big ah! hahaha!
oh tak eh? lol

stop bragging you ppl 21 and above who just got your money!
im getting mine next year okay!
atleast im still young. oh eff! i hate to even be 20!

get well soon, you.

bukan tak cinta

2009-02-23T23:48:00.002+08:00

im gonna answer all your questions here and so stop asking why i changed job.
its not that i dont want to work at moo moo anymore.
infact, i think moo2 is one of the best job i've had.
and its also not because of the pay cus my current job is paying me the same.
its just that i want more days to work.
and i cant simply shoo the moo2 full timers to give me their days right?
there. you got your explanation and so stop asking darlings.. =))

TAGS!
mai - mai! i've got so many of your numbers stored in my phone! which one!
ziela - yes i will update okay! will tell you personally! oh! im on off this friday too. tapi saya pergi gym pagi... =((

i've been kept occupied with work..
what is the thing i'll look forward to each time im awake, you asked?
so that it'll soon be night again. long conversations all night long.

2009-02-21T01:59:00.001+08:00

my heart's fluttering. hear it flutter.
why...

hello

2009-02-20T22:24:00.003+08:00

oh darlings im still here!
and i misses you too!

gimme me a minute as i reply to tags.
mai - yeah misses misses! we gotta go out. okay i know i've said that a gazillion times. but i've been busy lately. will share why later. and miss! how do i contact you???

ziela - my karma darla!! im not on MIA mode darling.. oh i actually texted you along to gym. supposedly today.. i was wondering why you didn't reply. skali message fail to send. toot kan! so i went gym alone just now.

i've been in moo moo for almost 2 years now. everyone knows whr to find me every saturday.
but im not working there anymore. so dont find me there okay!

where am i working?
clue: CCORS
unscramble that.

song is current favourite.

2009-02-03T17:33:00.001+08:00

i POSSESS the

breaking dawn

2009-02-02T09:42:00.002+08:00

its one of those one-in-a-million-not-sleeping-for-24hrs-days.
i sure you guys can get a vision of how i looked like.
thank god i didnt lose track of my days.
the time passed so quickly.
syaza and sharifah left at 4.
so its just us four left. we crapped and bbq while we watched the sky turned bright.

i would've went home along with syaza and sharifah if it wouldn't have been for the promise.
cus we thought it'd be an adventurous night. exploring and walking or even cycling.
but we were stuck on 'base' to take care of bags. tsk.

as a whole, the night was alright.
but how i wished we could've filled up our conversations with more random issues other and gossips.
my gastric came without warning. efffff!

now, i want my s.s.es and newton babes.. and the rest which makes up my 8 bestfriends.

dwtvyw

2009-01-30T13:27:00.001+08:00

im not game

2009-01-29T11:43:00.003+08:00

cny.
one of those days where almost everywhere is a ghost town.

okay i dont know what to blog about.
so many things to filter here in this blog.
wait. doesnt this blog belongs to me?
why the hell should i not say what i want to say??
oh. easy. because of some of you bitches out there...

2009-01-23T23:56:00.002+08:00

its the same routine again.
headed to school but today feels different.
cause its the last day of school.
last day of being in the 2nd yr.
which is almost the beginning of the 3rd year.

to some, HAPPY GRADFUCKUATION! =))

i had a wholesome of good time painting today.
i wana paint my room too!
dont ask me what colour. you know what i want.

not the same

2009-01-21T18:12:00.002+08:00

i dont think being around me these days would be a good idea.
so i've decided to keep a distant away from people - even my bestfriends.
temperamental. thats the precise word to explain.
its prolly because i dont get what i want.
like my eclipse book. I refuse to read the pdf file that was given to me months ago.
JUST because i WANT to read it from the book!

the other reason would be redundancy or repitition.
i hate having to do both of them!
i hate it when i give redundant advices to you, you and YOU!!!
JUST GO AND DIE!

i just got a remark. consider me warned.

obsession

2009-01-01T22:05:00.003+08:00

im here to confess my recent obsession.

at times, i questioned myself. " how is this ever possible?"
but i wish it could be.

when life offers you a dream beyond your expectations....

here's an extraction from a website i got which made me realise that im obsessed - who isn't?

45 ways to know im obsessed. i fit most of the criterias there. read: most

You know you're obsessed with the Twilight Series when:

1. you download every song from Stephanie Meyers playlist and listen to them non-stop on your iPod.

2. you dream about it every night.

3. you want to go to Forks for your spring break.

4. you squeal every time you see a silver Volvo, even if it's not your favorite car.

5. you cringe whenever you hear/see Edward's or Bella's name and it has nothing to do with Stephenie Meyer.

6. you've ceased to believe that vampires actually have fangs or any weakness. And you believe all vampires must be inherently hot.

7. you're counting down the minutes until Breaking Dawn comes out.8. you quote lines from the books for use in your everyday speech.

9. you solidly believe your boyfriend is a vampire simply on the basis that he's sexy.

10. you refer to your ideal boyfriend as an "Edward."

11. you pre-order your copy of Breaking Dawn at Barnes & Noble.

12. you name your characters after the Twilight characters.

13. you cry because your father used New Moon as a coaster for his drink

14. you count down the days till Edwards birthday 60 days before it starts. (June 20th)

15. a love song comes on and you immediately think of Edward and Bella.

16. you have bought both the audio books.

17. you have bought t-shirts from twilightteez.com.

18. you relate even the weirdest things to the book.

19. you carry the books with you.20. you go to Forks.

21. you almost faint when you first saw the cover of Eclispe.

22. you think you can feel Edward beside you while you're reading(or just doing nothing at all).

23. you talk to nothing but think you're talking to Edward.

24. you stay locked in your room until you've read it over a million times.

25. you start talking to it (the book).

26. you talk to your friends about it...even though they have no idea what you're talking about!27. you ask them how you know you love the Twilight series even though they STILL don't know what you're talking about.

28. you sleep with the book cradled in your arms.

29. while talking to your friends, they mention something that reminds you of Twilight, and you mutter a joke for Twilight-lovers with super hearing and start laughing your head off.

30. you are highly considering naming your future children the characters names.

31. in class, you relate every project to something in the book.

32. the name Edward becomes your new favorite guy name.

33. you didn't let anybody else touch your books.

34. you and your boyfriend call each other "Edward" and "Bella".

35. you sit on the roof of your house every night waiting for Edward to come.

36. you name random people at your school the characters' names.

37. you wish for them not to make a Twilight movie because it could never be as good as the book but still want to see it.

38. you start failing in school because either your reading the Twilight Series. Or you are thinking about Edward and his family.

39. you make a protective cover for your twilight to ensure that you never leave your copy of Twilight when it goes with you to yours friend's house.

40. you create a debate in class over Edwards "perfection"

41. you and your friends try to guess the entire plot to Breaking Dawn.

42. you refer to it as "The Black and Red Bible"

43. you start imagining scenes from the books in your head before you go to bed.

44. you try to compare a lot of things to the book.

45. your cry at sad parts of the book... Even though you've read it 20 times.

If you agreed, laughed at, or even remotely understood at least 10 of these, you are obsessed with the Twilight series. XD

beijing

2008-12-16T23:44:00.002+08:00

im here at the airport using the free internet access
will be back in 6 days.
see ya!

bruce lee

2008-12-02T19:38:00.002+08:00

i was reading through the history msn conversations we had.
it sure made me smile.

"your smile is the jewel"

all i can do is reminisce
replace; isnt a need, atleast for now.

so many things, too little time.

2008-11-30T20:35:00.002+08:00

okay this is gonna be lengthy but i'll make it easier for you guys to read.
there's too many things, too little time.

lai yan's bday
it was sucha pity that i couldn't turn up for laiyan's bday.
as much as i was looking forward to it, i had to do some preparations for the beloved uncle's wedding.
i'll try to make up for it.

sitex
friday was sitex fair too. i was really in need of a thumbdrive cus my laptop is getting so unpredictable these days. tsk. but i'll have to give it a miss. saturday and sunday? is a total nono.

mustafa centre
mustafa centre became handy. we fleed there in the wee hours of the morning to get some stuffs till 3. i was already THAT tired. next, sakunthala for naan.

solemnisation
believe it or not, liza and i MISSED the solemnisation on saturday!!! oh god! it was terrible. i felt like missing a funeral or something. but we didn totally missed it. thanks to kammil and jali for the video call. we made it just in time for the photo taking session though. we made alittle too much noise that the host couldn't handle us. oops. we cant help the overwhelming exuberance of our beloved 'just-married' uncle.

sucky end
the day ended pretty badly. everyone was grumpy. esp le grandparents. dont ask me why.

reception
i was the part time make up artist for le uncle before reaching julia's place. groom's best man is sure a good looking one. woooot! *well atleast that's for me* we had a couple of discreet communication but i wont tell you the details. haha! the bride is stunning. i believe, none wasn't mesmerised. i was in a rush that i totally forgotten my camera. so, no pictures from me. but as soon as i got from the cousins, i'll post it! so..... see you soon.

today's

2008-11-26T11:47:00.002+08:00

The Bottom Line
An ex is back on the scene, but you couldn't care less. Watch their jealousy grow.

In Detail
An ex is back on the scene, and it looks like they might even be on the market! Before you even contemplate finding out if they are free next week, remember why things are over between you two. Then, be grateful that they are over! Turn your head away from temptation and instead, focus on where you want to go with your life. Your independent attitude will surprise them, and even fill them with jealousy -- which is a pretty nice position to put yourself in.

this is what's for me in friendster today.

oh im broke.

2008-11-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

i've spent waay too much time at home. its time to get even. well that's atleast what it is, according to rys. we headed down south, where? marina south, chilled alittle. we didnt wana miss the sunset. so we caught it at the henderson waves. time wasnt on our side. i had to rush back home, just in time for syaf's surprise birthday party. we crashed at haryna's place with tons of other adssians and had a blast. no pictuuures! but i'll go 'steal' some pictures at her blog later.
OOOoooo...

i was all psyched when shawn passed me dj matrix. which officially turns me into a psp freak. i was even reluctant to go back with siti aft work just to have a piece of my dj matrix. but i just asked for the sake of it. hehe! *she'll be so mad to read this* luck was on my side, she couldn't go home w me for some reason. im one hell of a dj matrix-ER i tell you. liza!! you want you want???

who can eveeeer resist a maxi day out??? S.S.es spent our sunday evening at al-tazzaq with our maxi-s! we had a mini seesha session. that's atleast for me cus im not so keen abt it. now i've got the smell stuck on me. gotta get rid of it. 'gunakanlah pantene pro-v'. trust me, it works. i've got feedbacks from some.

and i shudn forget, we had our little girl talk. honestly, im feeling better.

sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeep ya'll!!!!

2008-11-21T14:40:00.002+08:00

fair enough, i shared the sorrow, i'll share the joy with you.

i passed pp. god is fair. HE took something away from me and repaid me with so much more.

God is fair. HE wont test us beyond our strength.

click picture to enlarge.

it's yesterdays' rj question. the most interesting by far.

"if you have a chance to avoid working with 2 particualar classmates, who would you choose an why?"

I THOUGHT I WAS THE ONLY ONEEEE! *inside joke*

2008-11-20T14:55:00.002+08:00

i copy pasted this from friendster.

The Bottom Line
Relaxation is more important than progress right now in your life. Ease off the gas.

In Detail
Relaxation is much more important than progress right now in your life, so ease off the gas pedal for a while! Take the more inviting, meandering road to wherever you need to go today and don't you dare look at your watch! Sure, taking the scenic route will probably add time to your journey, but what you will be seeing will be so delightful that slow and leisurely will be the perfect pace. It's a great day for conversations that last three hours long and go nowhere.

its exactly what i wana do.

2008-11-19T16:21:00.001+08:00

i guess there's no point keeping myself in denial. so i guess its time to share. it was rocky eversince we hit our first anniversary. i wasn't ignorant to the whole situation. i knew something was wrong but we were both just too afraid to lose each other. after a yr and a half of being together, its over. it is really over. i cherished each and every moment we had. as i weaved the memories together, tears starts streaming down my cheeks. our laughters, babytalks, jokes and even arguments meant something. i'd miss the daily late night phone calls we had most, completing our perfect day. i was down on my knees, praying for the best to come. oh Almighty, give me the strength. i've always believed in fate. so i'd go wherever fate brings me.
i was clueless to what's next. wak lan's wedding is coming and mk is invited. this cant get any harder. it gets harder when families are already involved. oh god, this is emotionally draining. i dont know what to feel. what sounds really good now would be some support from cousins, families and gfs.. oh and you. yes you, readers.
mkln.?

it was the most beautiful ever.

2008-11-17T19:49:00.002+08:00

isnt she adorable??

that's sharleez.

im actually an avid reader of her mom's blog
so, little sharleez here entered the huggies ultra photo contest.
i really think she deserves to win.

http://www.huggies.com.sg/photo_contest_huggies_ultra/gallery.aspx?id=1002

there! go VOTE!

2008-11-12T20:57:00.002+08:00

oh trust me.
you wouldn't wanna know what happened during driving lesson today
i dont bloody care cus im gonna tell you anyways! haha!
i had to drive on the main road unprepared.
not easy. not easy.
i hate multi tasking. its tiring... its like working out.
or even worse than that!
eyes on blind spot, mirrors, signs, traffic lights and bla bla bla
left leg is forEVER on a standby position to the clutch.
while right leg controlling the accelerator or brake!
*oh im taking manual, mind you. not taking the easy way out.*
then i realise something.
there's no fucking time for me to lose my focus!! like.... day dream??
i LOOOOOVE day dreaming.
i told you. train rides are fine by me.. but im doing this for my dad.
i love you dad.

2008-11-10T21:31:00.001+08:00

i love all!

2008-11-10T19:41:00.003+08:00

i had one hell of a weekend.
i woke up on the wrong side of the bed.
if it wasnt for my ungu to keep my cool, you would've seen a vid of me somewhere in youtube cursing and swearing endlessly on a sunday morning for a trip to paya lebar.
but the night was made up by my girls. for a shopping trip.

for my girls and i, we'll always be up for a budget shopping challenge.
the best buy of the day wins!
the funny thing about all these cheap clothings is that they look much nicer than to those expensive ones.
oh dont you start talking about quality here with me, girls...
cus those jeans or whatever not that you're wearing which you spent hundreds on, might just be one of those 'made in china' ones. dont believe me?? start flipping tags, ladies!

what is rare to me is splurging.
splurging kills.
well unless...... its a really great buy, then there's no other point contemplating.
just effing get it, stupid!

i'll be back

2008-11-06T15:47:00.002+08:00

i'll be back real soon from my long long blogging break.
i know i took alittle too long. but there's things i gotta sort out.
so many things that all of you missed. things like.....

hari raya

both my newton babes' bdays

a date out with nanagi (and what she brought back as a belated bday present. hehe!)

the ungu concert

meeting new people

driving lessons! (yeap! you heard me right!)

pp assessment

upcoming beijing trip

the postponed bangkok trip (AGAIN)

dont you go anywhere. god. this blog needs a makeover.
how about a makeover??? FAT HOPE! hah!
any kind souls out there to help me with the layout?

after sooooo long.

2008-11-01T01:42:00.003+08:00

the luckiest ever.

oh for those who doesnt know who's that....

that's pasha. my boyfriend. haha! kidding.

im sure you guys know who he is.
after months of waiting.... finally. and thank god.

that explains why im also in 'ungu'. =))

jangan jealous ahhhhh.

2008-10-24T22:14:00.003+08:00

here's a short news from me. still alive and kicking asses.
in short, i've never been better. =)
i love my 8 little bestfriends. you know who you are.
love